On being forged into a warrior mom

If I could summarize our journey from Hell to HOPEISM, it would be in my faith, which I call HOPEISM. It has been my weapon of choice to get me through each battle I have had to fight in my mission to win our war called life with autism and seizures. Vaccine injury to be more specific. It would also be in committing to heart, soul, & mind the words and motto's from Forged, NDCQ, the Lone Survivor, and Levi Lusko in his book, "Through the Eyes of a Lion." I will be forever grateful to the inspiration, encouragement, and mental fortitude found through all of them collectively. Because of that, I am not allowing this tragedy of vaccine injury that has come into our lives to be an obstacle to being used by God. I am instead turning it into an opportunity to be used like never before!

This blog is dedicated to Brandon. His life has been forged by difficulty, obstacles, & all too often because of seizures - pain, blood, broken teeth, & broken bones. Yet through all that he has shown such fortitude. The bravery, strength, & resilience of a true warrior. He taught me that having strength through adversity means that even if you lose every battle, like the Lone Survivor, you never quit fighting until you win the war. That in the words of "NDCQ," you keep "dreaming," keep "daring," & keep "doing." As Team Guppy has yet to be able to escape vaccine injury, we have no choice but to as Levi Lusko writes, "Run toward the Roar." God has indeed given us such incredible power in enduring such impossible pain.

Some days the HOPEISM in that simply takes my breath away.

February 4, 2017

The Curious Incident...

The Curious Incident of the Adult Protective Services visit during the day:

An Open Letter to politicians, policymakers, physicians, lobbyist groups, & passionate parents everywhere --
My name is Michelle Guppy. I am the mother of two boys.  One of them is vaccine-injured.  Significantly vaccine-injured.  He is labeled as having "autism" but make no mistake it is very much vaccine-injury and I will not ever shy away from speaking the truth regarding that.  One need only look through the twelve pages of medical office visit notes I painstakingly compiled to see that after each vaccination, I brought him in to the Pediatrician for an adverse event that was listed in the tiniest of prints on that package insert that comes with each vial of vaccines that I never ever got before I consented to the vaccine.  But that's for another discussion…

Right now I would like to address another rampant epidemic that must be stopped.
The hate.

The bullying.

The blocking.

The threatening.

The labeling.

The fear-mongering.

The things of that nature that politicians, physicians, policymakers, and non-profit immunization groups that support them have declared "open season" to participate in lately.

The vaccine choice issue is not going away.  Pandora's box has been opened and thanks to Dr. Thompson, the CDC Whistleblower, (and many others) the truth of vaccines has been freed and we mere parents will not stop speaking and sharing that truth.  The lid on the truth will never again be nailed shut in the name of "the science has spoken" no matter how much those who profit from vaccines or whose campaigns are funded by vaccines wish it to be.  The truth from the science that hasn't been allowed to speak is there for those brave enough to believe it.  For those humble enough to do better because of learning it.  Vaccines maimed my son, and hundreds of thousands of other children.  As inconvenient and bothersome as that truth is, it still remains the truth.  We've traded normal, acute, fully recoverable childhood ILLNESSES for chronic lifelong debilitating DISORDERS and DISEASES that are far worse than anything vaccinated against.  Vaccines in the name of SIDS have murdered countless babies.   These normal febrile illnesses being vaccinated against are not the plague of our time that will wipe out humanity.  The plague of adverse vaccine reactions and the destruction of our children's brains is the plague of our time that IS and WILLforever alter humanity if we don't stop it.

When I did my own independent research and realized what I had allowed happen to my son in consenting to vaccines, I had a decision to make.  I thought long and hard about that decision, because I knew the implications and what might come of it.  I knew the risks of being transparent.  I knew sharing our truth would make me a target.  But as severely injured as my son was, I knew even more that I had to use his story, what happened to him, as a warning to other parents so they would not ever have to live through the hell my family has.  Is.  And so from very early on, I was transparent with the unpopular truth of what happened to him.  When I heard over and over that "vaccines are safe" - I would share my sons story (that was really hundreds of other parents stories as well) about just how unsafe they actually are...   When I would hear how parents were being told "vaccine injury is mild" and was portrayed as being as benign as "pain and swelling at the injection site" - I would share a picture or video of my son gasping and choking and seizing and convulsing his way through yet another vaccine induced Grand Mal Seizure.  I did those things not to exploit him, but so the truth that was buried under the lies and corruption would be exposed.  THAT, is the greater good

Parents deserve to know both sides of the vaccine story and I believe with all that is in me, that my sons purpose in his injury is to leave a legacy of having shared that truth.  Vaccine injury is not rare nor is it mild and if any good could come from the horror of him having to live through what he must each and every day of his life, it would be in sharing that truth as awful as it is to see, as horrific as it is to watch, or how painful that gasping for air is to listen to.  My purpose is to share that truth to make vaccine injury "one less" nightmare another parent must endure.

Parents are not being fully informed of how more babies, children, and adults are being harmed or killed from the vaccine and not from the illness vaccinated against.  They do not know the stark reality of trading a week-long inconvenience of illness for a lifelong reality of a child that could quite possibly miss every major milestone in life.  As my son has.   And in answer to the question "measles" or "autism" -- oh you bet measles.  I'll take a strengthened immune system over a weakened one any day, - and any parent who is allowed to hear the fully informed truth of that, will choose that too.

It has been because of  that truth that politicians, physicians, policymakers, immunization groups, and even some parents- have felt that it was open season to rapid-fire attack those who dare share that truth.  Those parents whom I might add were like me, "Pro-Vax".   For the record, I vaccinated my son on time every time.  It was not until it was too late, that I realized I was fooled.  Lied to.  Deceived.

Politicians, physicians, policymakers, immunization groups, and fellow parents have called us such vile and filthy names it borders on criminal hate crimes.  We've been threatened, yelled at, and made fun of,  - all for merely sharing the truth as we witnessed it occurring in our own children.

Those who have differing views in supporting and believing in vaccines have said that if we don't vaccinate our children they should be taken away from us.  That if our children die and they weren't vaccinated that we should be brought up on murder charges!  So what then would be the charge we get to levy on the government when their mandated vaccines injure or kill our children?  Because when you understand the toxic and carcinogenic sludge that is vaccines, vaccination is very much assault with a deadly weapon.  Yet there is no recourse for us when our children are assaulted, injured, or killed.  We are left to pay that price for the rest of our life, and our child's.

I respect that some parents do vaccinate.  They have that right, just as I have the right in choosing to no longer vaccinate my son or myself because of the independent research I have done.  Even though I disagree with their choice and try to share warnings and truth about what could go severely wrong and how vaccines are not needed to prevent normal, acute, fully-recoverable febrile illnesses that strengthen your immune system to better protect against things later in life that are deadly - I do it respectfully.  I do not bully, name-call, curse at them, or threaten, or call in meritless complaints against them.

It is to that end that I say, "Houston, we have a problem."

Those of us who have done their research and who do not believe in vaccines (anymore) and who not vaccinate (anymore) are vilified in the most horrific fashion.  Much of that coming directly or indirectly from legislators, physicians, and immunization lobbyist groups.  That must stop.  You cannot bully us into believing your position (your funded by Pharma campaign position) regarding vaccination.  You will never convince us vaccines are safe.  We believed you once, and our children paid the ultimate price of that deception with their health, and for some, with their life.  To make this vaccine choice issue a war, is to create a war that neither side will win because of the carnage that will be left behind on the battlefield.

As I shared, I have dedicated my life to sharing my son's story for the purpose of sharing truth among all the lies.  Vaccine injury is rampant and it is rapidly maiming the health of an entire generation.  When Representatives are using their twitter accounts to call us "Anti-Vaxxers" (again, we did vaccinate our kids) "crazy as fuck" and "playboy bunnies" we have a huge ethics problem.  That is hatred.  That invites hatred and stirs up hatred, and no politician should ever be the one instigating such behavior.  Yet time and time again, those behaviors are coming from those elected to public office.  We are either called names, blocked, or any number of such tactics that are about winning, and winning only, at any cost.  About hiding and blocking the truth at all cost.   The truth that got lost somewhere in the puppet string entanglement of not serving the people who elected you, but rather the pharmaceutical-based campaign contributions that bought your election.

My son and I were the victims recently of that hatred, which brings me to the title of this letter…

The curious incident of the Adult Protective Services visit during the day.

I have done the advocacy I do in sharing my sons story for fifteen years.  I was honored with receiving the Jefferson Award for my advocacy efforts and the contributions I have made in helping fellow parents navigate the minefield that is life with autism (vaccine injury).  I share that only to illustrate that it has been my mission to help my son, fellow parents, and their children. I have been quite vocal in television interviews on Medicaid cuts, school issues for those with special needs, cameras in the classroom, community supports, and so on.   I have been to Washington, D.C. to hearings and to rallies, and have given testimony in Austin on issues related to my sons vaccine injury.

Through all of that, not once has a complaint regarding the care I give my son or the manner in which I share the truth of his story been filed.

But this legislative session, mere days after I recently did a television interview opposing the bill that would allow minors to consent to the HPV vaccine, -  my doorbell rings and when I answer it, it is an officer from Adult Protective Services who is there to follow-up on an anonymous complaint regarding the care of my son.   I cannot begin to tell you how low that is.  That just because of having opposing views, someone feels they can stoop to that level of meritless, baseless accusations using scare tactics to silence those who oppose their views.

Let me make crystal clear that I am not naming anyone by name and not accusing any one person, politician, or group.  That complaint could have had everything to do with that interview against vaccines that I did, and it can have nothing to do with that interview I did.  The person who lodged that complaint hid behind the ability to be able to call in anonymously.  So I don't know who called that in.  But I know when they did and I know why they did.   And even if that complaint did not directly come from a legislator, their office, or a group that supports them, it most certainly came from the hatred stirred by them being so publicly vile against those who  offer an opposing view.  That creates an atmosphere of hate and invites people to stoop to such levels as what happened to me.

If the point of that baseless complaint was regarding the care of my son, allow me to assure every politician, every physician, every group, every person - of the care my vaccine injured son receives.  My family has been forever altered by his vaccine injury.  We have given up everything for him.  We have spent thousands upon thousands of dollars in trying to recover him from those vaccine injuries that mainstream medicine refused to acknowledge let alone pay for.  We sacrificed having a normal family relationship for the care of our son in that my "other" son only ever saw one parent at a time.  He went on vacations with one of us, the other home caring for Brandon.  At his sports events he heard the cheering from only one of us, the other home caring for Brandon.  I gave up the pursuit of my education, my career, many of my hobbies, my everything for the care of my son.  I gave up friendships, date nights, and even the ability to sleep in the same room as my  husband so I could stay upstairs all night with my son should he have a seizure.  We gave up our "other" sons college fund to put toward caring for our vaccine-injured son.  We have given up everything to care for our son and it is a hideous thing for someone to hide behind a phone call to an agency for the sheer purpose of making our life that is harder than any of you could ever imagine, - that much harder.  The only thing I can be accused of regarding the care of my vaccine-injured son is not having enough money to help him more than we already do.  To pay for the things he needs and might greatly benefit from, that insurance won't cover and that we cannot afford.

Yes, whoever called in that complaint, succeeded.  I was scared and shaken to the core.  Check-mark duly placed in the win column for them.  That visit happened during the week that was my son's last day to attend his therapy center because insurance denied our claims, during a week where my son was having numerous seizures, on a day where my son had two seizures.  In having to cope with all of that hardship that is daily life with vaccine injury for so many of us, I had to also deal with a meritless agency visit questioning my care of my son.  Making my burdens heavier.  My stress greater.  All because I dare to share the truth about vaccines.  They succeeded in scaring me. They succeeded in adding to my stress in that now every time my door bell rings I'll wonder if it's another complaint, or worse.  They succeeded in many ways, but they did not succeed in silencing me.  My greatest advocacy and care for my son comes in sharing the truth of what happened to him and I will not be scared into silence.  I owe him more than that no matter what it costs me.  To do any less would be the very abuse and neglect I was accused of.

 If whoever called in that complaint had taken the time they spent digging through my website, my blogs, my facebook, and my twitter account to piece together pictures and videos to try and find some way to incriminate and silence me; and instead actually read what I wrote that went along with those things or researched independent proof of how vaccines never saved us and how they are in fact maiming us, -- they would have actually accomplished something useful with their time in realizing the truth.

A Representative in a tweet recently called us "crazy as fuck."

She is actually partially correct.

I was crazy as fuck for ever consenting to vaccines for my son.

And make no mistake, I will never ever vaccinate myself, or him, again.

It is my body, my choice.

He is my child, and to vaccinate him or not is my choice.

I have read and have the ability to understand medical abstracts and studies.  Most of all, I have this awesome superpower that allows me to follow the money trail of who is telling me vaccines are safe so I can truly know whose science to believe. 

In closing, I deserve to know who called in that merit-less complaint.  The politician who called parents like me "crazy as fuck" and the one who referred to those who are "anti-vax" as "Playboy Bunnies" and anyone else who while serving in public office posts such venom deserves to be reprimanded for instigating such division that leads to the kind of horrific experience that I just had to go through.  That person who submitted that complaint against me did so through Adult Protective Services in Austin.  I ask of legislators, when parents like me are the targets of those public slurs, what agency do we call to lodge a complaint of abuse?  Who knocks on the doors of those politicians to investigate that and reprimand or remove them from public office?  When we feel threatened as I do by baseless, merit-less complaints against us, who protects us from what those with more money and more power than us can make happen to us?  Who investigates the person who called in that anonymous complaint now that it has been found to be without merit?


Texans, Americans, parents on either side of the vaccine issue, all deserve an honest, open, respectful, public debate on this issue.

Sadly, we are getting neither of those things.

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And as for my son and that complaint?

Since vaccines have taken away his ability to speak, his story of what happened to him is shared through my words, videos, and pictures.  In this society where what happened to him is ignored and our truth in sharing that dismissed, it's the only way I have to prove that he is here and this is what happened to him because of the callous disregard of those who make vaccines, approve vaccines, mandate vaccines, profit from vaccines, and who bear no liability for vaccines.

It is the CDC who should have received that knock on their door, not me.  

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