The above is a picture of a bush at the end of the sidewalk leading up to my front door. Brandon and I pass this bush each morning as we head into the tan minivan to be off to school.
It was odd how I came to focus on that bird yesterday morning. When I opened the front door I heard it fly off quickly, as if it had been sitting on the chair by the front door waiting for us to come out. When we stepped on the porch I saw it head down the sidewalk, stop briefly on my tan minivan, then continue on to that bush. That bush that it seemed to know we would pass by.
What a crazy week it was already -- three doctor's appointments for Brandon regarding two upcoming procedures he'll have to have in two different hospitals under general anesthesia. (Far be it for anyone to get a clue about autism and actually work together, coordinate, to do everything all at once!) One at Memorial Herman for Dental Surgery under sedation to fix a broken tooth from a fall from a seizure, the other at Texas Children's Hospital for an Endoscopy and Colonoscopy with Biopsies to rule out any new issues other than the ones we already know of, that would be causing weight loss and increased bowel issues.
Ahhhh -- the life of "Life with Autism....."
Constant threat of sadness.
So needless to say, as we were off for our first pre-op visit of that day, I didn't have the time nor desire to be bird watching.
Yet that bird's presence drew me in. Even with Brandon and his humming and running around close to it in his typical "evade and escape" pattern of avoiding getting in the van, the bird remained still in that bush.
I allowed myself a moment to stop and look at it. It was a beautiful scene with it being almost camouflaged by the bush. And I do love anything camouflage. I wondered if it would allow me to get close enough to take a picture. I took out my phone and dared to step closer and closer and much to my surprise the bird dared to let me. One more step closer and I could have touched it.
Only God would send me a bird to wait outside my door to remind me, in all my worry with all I had to do this week and the coming weeks and with all that could go wrong in all of that --- to not worry.
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?"
Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.
Right before I snapped the picture of the bird, I noticed that where his eye should have been was a scab.
Only God could put an exclamation point on the end of that message by not only sending me a bird, but one who has a disability.
A bird much like my Brandon.
Good one God --
I won't worry.
I'll Choose Happy.