On being forged into a warrior mom

If I could summarize our journey from Hell to HOPEISM, it would be in my faith, which I call HOPEISM. It has been my weapon of choice to get me through each battle I have had to fight in my mission to win our war called life with autism and seizures. Vaccine injury to be more specific. It would also be in committing to heart, soul, & mind the words and motto's from Forged, NDCQ, the Lone Survivor, and Levi Lusko in his book, "Through the Eyes of a Lion." I will be forever grateful to the inspiration, encouragement, and mental fortitude found through all of them collectively. Because of that, I am not allowing this tragedy of vaccine injury that has come into our lives to be an obstacle to being used by God. I am instead turning it into an opportunity to be used like never before!

This blog is dedicated to Brandon. His life has been forged by difficulty, obstacles, & all too often because of seizures - pain, blood, broken teeth, & broken bones. Yet through all that he has shown such fortitude. The bravery, strength, & resilience of a true warrior. He taught me that having strength through adversity means that even if you lose every battle, like the Lone Survivor, you never quit fighting until you win the war. That in the words of "NDCQ," you keep "dreaming," keep "daring," & keep "doing." As Team Guppy has yet to be able to escape vaccine injury, we have no choice but to as Levi Lusko writes, "Run toward the Roar." God has indeed given us such incredible power in enduring such impossible pain.

Some days the HOPEISM in that simply takes my breath away.

January 20, 2017

Vaccines: All the Risks, None of the Benefits

I was honored that my submission was included in the Narrative Inquiry in Bioethics published by Johns Hopkins University Press.

My submission is shared in full below, but most importantly, Ginger Taylor's submission can be read by clicking here...  Ginger Taylor is a powerhouse of truth, and a voice of authority on vaccine injury.  Please read her submission and share it with everyone.

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NARRATIVE SYMPOSIUM Vaccines: All the Risks, None of the Benefits

Michelle M Guppy 

Narrative Inquiry in Bioethics Call for Stories:

To Vaccinate or Not? Parents’ Stories—

“Regrets from a Recovering Pro-Vaxxer” is my “to vaccinate or not” story.

You asked for true, personal stories from parents about making vaccination decisions for their children. I guess where my story begins is at that time, as a young mother in the 90’s, it really wasn’t a decision to make. I didn’t know there was anything I needed to further research to decide regarding vaccination. I did not have any reason to question vaccines. “Vaccination” was a non-issue in that I never read or heard from anyone anything about vaccination, pro, con, or otherwise.

All I knew was what my Pediatrician told me, and even then, it was not what I know today as “informed consent”—it was more, “you are at so and so visit (2, 4, 6 month, etc.) and here is what your baby will be getting, sign this . . .” That was all I knew of vaccination. It wasn’t a “decision” it was something you just did. I didn’t know about any adverse reactions other than the benign things listed on the consent form the office gave me. A form that I now know was vastly different than the “informed consent” form that is wrapped around the vaccine vial that the manufacturer must include by law, but that parents like me never saw, or knew to ask to see. I didn’t know about the vaccine ingredients (they weren’t listed on their form) and I certainly didn’t know the odds of my son getting what I was vaccinating against vs. the incredible odds of him having a chronic, debilitating, life altering and life–long adverse vaccine reaction.

Perhaps most horrifically, I didn’t know that not once in the United States were vaccines studied done to show outcomes in vaccinated vs. unvaccinated children to answer the question, “Who is healthier?”—that would have been good to have had on the consent forms. I further didn’t know that vaccines were never studied when given in combination as my sons were. I didn’t know that vaccines were not tested against a true placebo as every other drug is required to be. I didn’t know that no one but me would be responsible for any and all adverse vaccine reactions. I didn’t know the contraindications of vaccines. I didn’t know the scope of what vaccine reactions were. So very much was left off that “consent” form! I essentially didn’t know anything about vaccinations when I “decided” to have my son vaccinated! Knowing what I know now, in having an adult son severely injured by adverse vaccine reactions, I would never recommend anyone to vaccinate their child. Knowing what I know now, if I could go back and do it all again, I would never, ever vaccinate my children.

Those who make, mandate, and profit from vaccination have severe conflicts of interest and anything they share or assure regarding vaccines fall on deaf ears of those who know better, those who have since done their own independent research. I would rather take my chances on acute, benign, fully recoverable typical childhood illnesses that strengthen the immune system, over the chronic, lifelong, debilitating disorders that have weakened my son for life. Where once he could say words, smile, interact—he now cannot read, write, or speak and will need 1:1 assistance and lifelong care. All to prevent a weak case of: chicken pox? Measles? The flu? Vaccine policy is not about health; it is about profit and convenience. It would be easier to not be inconvenienced by missed school or missed work— so instead many have bought into the lie of artificial immunity—that is anything but “immunity”. I can speak with authority as a parent on this because I have lived both sides. Between my husband and I, we have had chicken pox, measles, and mumps. We are in our 50’s, healthy, and are on no medication. We had a total of five vaccines in our life. My son who has had the recommended dozens, is sick with seizures, autoimmune disease, mitochondrial dysfunction, gastrointestinal disease, allergies, and on no less than 10–15 medications and supplements just to keep him alive. I am pressured each time I go to the doctor’s office for vaccine upon vaccine, for my vaccine–injured son.

It is oppressive what parents are forced or bribed or threatened into doing with vaccination. It is a constant fear for me. There is no way I will ever consent to any further vaccination for my son, yet I feel one day there won’t be a choice and my already vaccine–injured son will be further injured with no recourse. It is not so much what I wish those who disagree with me should know about my views on vaccination—it is that they need to live a day in the life of my son who must now live with severe vaccine injury. Watch him have leaky gut episode after episode. Watch his lips turn blue from yet another seizure. Ride with me in the ambulance as we rush to the emergency room for x–rays from yet another broken bone from yet another seizure. See the pictures of who he was and imagine the future he had before vaccines and then change his adult diaper—this is who he became after vaccine reactions, which is someone who never played little league t–ball. Someone who never played cowboys and Indians with his friends. Someone who never had a crush on a girl, a date to the prom, a first kiss. Someone who will never drive a car. Someone who will never provide us with empty nest, a daughter-in-law, or grandchildren.

 I could provide independent proof upon proof of how unsafe and unsound vaccines are. But more than that, I wanted to convey those things that can’t be quantified in the cost of vaccine policy. The loss of milestones. All for the possibility of maybe avoiding chicken pox? I think what would help resolve the controversy is sharing those things like our story that you never hear on the news, in research journals. Stories that www.vaxxed.com are sharing from parents all across America. Hundreds and thousands of stories from parents who watched their children become maimed for life by adverse vaccine reactions. The “RIP” stories of those who have lost their babies after vaccination and have had it called “SIDS” when in fact, it was not SIDS, it was “vaccine injury” from being given multiple vaccines containing multiple neurotoxins at once. Countless stories of how lives have been maimed all for the sake of preventing a possible outbreak that would be benign at best. How many in any of those outbreaks in the last decade have died vs. how many vaccinated for that illness have died? The reality of that is sobering. Sickening for those who care to truly grasp it and not just profit from it.

For me, and what I’ve seen in how my sons life, and ours, was forever altered, it’s just not worth it. I would beg of any parent to believe the thousands of us on that. It isn’t worth it. The risk is too great. That is the decision you must make with the information and truth available today. Is vaccination worth it? My answer is a resounding no. Especially in light of how most outbreaks today began with a fully vaccinated individual or one shedding the live virus from being recently vaccinated. The vaccine policy has been weighed and measured with our son, and we have come to the overwhelming conclusion that with vaccination you get all of the risk and none of the intended benefit.

We will never, ever vaccinate again.

Narrative Inquiry in Bioethics Volume 6.3 (2016) E1-E8
c 2016 by Johns Hopkins University Press

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