On being forged into a warrior mom

If I could summarize our journey from Hell to HOPEISM, it would be in my faith, which I call HOPEISM. It has been my weapon of choice to get me through each battle I have had to fight in my mission to win our war called life with autism and seizures. Vaccine injury to be more specific. It would also be in committing to heart, soul, & mind the words and motto's from Forged, NDCQ, the Lone Survivor, and Levi Lusko in his book, "Through the Eyes of a Lion." I will be forever grateful to the inspiration, encouragement, and mental fortitude found through all of them collectively. Because of that, I am not allowing this tragedy of vaccine injury that has come into our lives to be an obstacle to being used by God. I am instead turning it into an opportunity to be used like never before!

This blog is dedicated to Brandon. His life has been forged by difficulty, obstacles, & all too often because of seizures - pain, blood, broken teeth, & broken bones. Yet through all that he has shown such fortitude. The bravery, strength, & resilience of a true warrior. He taught me that having strength through adversity means that even if you lose every battle, like the Lone Survivor, you never quit fighting until you win the war. That in the words of "NDCQ," you keep "dreaming," keep "daring," & keep "doing." As Team Guppy has yet to be able to escape vaccine injury, we have no choice but to as Levi Lusko writes, "Run toward the Roar." God has indeed given us such incredible power in enduring such impossible pain.

Some days the HOPEISM in that simply takes my breath away.

July 11, 2013

Part 3: The Renewal of our Forever: On this rock.


On this rock...

Matthew 16:18

"Now I say to you that you are Peter (which means 'rock'), and upon this rock I will build my church, and all the powers of hell will not conquer it."

It's hard to believe that there could be more to our fairytale summer, yet there is.  Our Silver Anniversary, celebrating 25 years of marriage with dear family and friends who we haven't seen in forever, Brandon getting to go have the time of his life at Camp Blessing, and then our "Happy Someday" trip of a lifetime to Maui -- where Matthew and Tiffany could join us.  It's more than I can comprehend!  At home now, even as I pour over the hundreds of pictures we took, I still can barely comprehend we were really there.  We really did all those things!

I love that scripture above because it symbolized the life Todd and I have tried to live.  Tried to instill in our son Matt.  That if you build your life, your home, your marriage, and raise your children on the rock of Christ --- bad things may happen to hurt you --- but the gates of hell will never destroy you. We are testament that.  Our marriage especially.  Which finally brings me to the title of this blog series, "The Renewal of our Forever."

The part of this miraculous trip that I did manage to keep a secret from Todd - was that when I had the dates for our trip, and found out we were going to Maui - I asked our longtime friends, Bill and Kathy Bush, some things about Maui because I knew they had been there.   In talking with Bill, I found out they were going to be in Maui the same time we were!   What are the chances of that?  That our once-in-a-lifetime vacation would overlap their vacation in Maui!   It just proved again and again how "God" this trip was.  We haven't seen Bill and Kathy for years.  When we lived in Oklahoma, they were our dearest friends.  They still are our dearest friends even though we've maybe seen each other 1-2 times in the last decade or longer.  Their friendship, their mentorship, has been priceless to us over the years.  Their marriage, their life, their Christianity, - truly built upon the rock of Christ.  We love them so very dearly - and that we got to share a few days together in Maui was just a true miracle!   They live in Oklahoma, we live in Texas, -- but it was in Maui where we visited and caught up!

I just marvel at that!

The day we arrived in Maui, Bill and I arranged to meet at a grocery store for us to get some things for our condo.  It was planned for Bill to just "happen" to bump into Todd in one of the aisles.  How I managed to keep that a secret is what's truly priceless, but this picture is pretty priceless too -- Todd was truly shocked to turn to the "thug" who bumped into him and see that it was his best friend Bill!

Todd's shock was something to remember.  Being at a Safeway in Maui and his best friend from Owasso, OK bumping in to him.  Too unreal!

As it turns out, their timeshare where they stayed was right down the beach from us!  That night they brought grilled burgers and hotdogs to our condo and we all had such a sweet time of fellowship!   The whole thing was just beyond my wildest dreams.
Back when I realized we would all be in Maui together, I asked Bill if he would mind renewing our marriage vows.  What better way to begin our fairytale of a trip!  We would all be in Maui, we would be celebrating our Silver Anniversary -- what an opportunity!  He said he would be honored.   I somehow managed to keep that a secret from Todd as well!  I forgot to bring our wedding rings, so while we were out shopping one day, I saw a little booth that was selling coconut wood "love rings" and I casually told Todd to try one on - they would be a nice little souvenir for our "Anniversary trip".   And so on July 3rd, a Wednesday, we all arranged to meet at the IAO Needle, a beautiful scenic/historic park, and sight see.  Bill and Kathy had their daughter there with them and her husband.  We had our son and his wife.  It was so cool...

So as we are all hiking along the trails through such beautiful scenery, Bill turned to me and said, "Whenever you are ready...." and we would do the ceremony.  Earlier, I told Matt and Tiff the plan for Todd and I to renew our wedding vows -- Matt would be Todd's best man, and Tiff agreed to be my maid of honor.  One of the places we stopped for pictures along our hike, was a huge rock along a waterfall stream.  The scripture above popped in my head - and I knew I wanted us to have that little ceremony on that rock.  So I told Bill, and we went back to the rock.  I gave Matt and Tiff our "coconut wood love rings" and then let Todd in on the secret!

There we stood on that rock, renewing our forever...

Bill shared some words from scripture, renewed our wedding vows, then said a very touching prayer.  It was such a sweet moment to share with our son and daughter-in-law, and performed and witnessed by our dear friends.

On a Wednesday, on a rock in the rainforest of Maui, we renewed our forever as we said "I do" again...

I can still hardly believe that.

Thank you Bill & Kathy, Jessica & Jimmy, for sharing that moment with us...

1 comment:

Kim said...

Tears, tears, and more tears.....

Love you all and appreciate the example you have shown not only to your boys, but to the rest of your family.

I pray Tyler and I are able to do the same for our children.