On being forged into a warrior mom

If I could summarize our journey from Hell to HOPEISM, it would be in my faith, which I call HOPEISM. It has been my weapon of choice to get me through each battle I have had to fight in my mission to win our war called life with autism and seizures. Vaccine injury to be more specific. It would also be in committing to heart, soul, & mind the words and motto's from Forged, NDCQ, the Lone Survivor, and Levi Lusko in his book, "Through the Eyes of a Lion." I will be forever grateful to the inspiration, encouragement, and mental fortitude found through all of them collectively. Because of that, I am not allowing this tragedy of vaccine injury that has come into our lives to be an obstacle to being used by God. I am instead turning it into an opportunity to be used like never before!

This blog is dedicated to Brandon. His life has been forged by difficulty, obstacles, & all too often because of seizures - pain, blood, broken teeth, & broken bones. Yet through all that he has shown such fortitude. The bravery, strength, & resilience of a true warrior. He taught me that having strength through adversity means that even if you lose every battle, like the Lone Survivor, you never quit fighting until you win the war. That in the words of "NDCQ," you keep "dreaming," keep "daring," & keep "doing." As Team Guppy has yet to be able to escape vaccine injury, we have no choice but to as Levi Lusko writes, "Run toward the Roar." God has indeed given us such incredible power in enduring such impossible pain.

Some days the HOPEISM in that simply takes my breath away.

July 17, 2010

The Carousel...

His childhood a carousel
 laughter heard round and round
always busy always exploring
excited by new treasures he found 

His life carousel music
playfully glee
his soul so very tender
his spirit so free

Bright lights
and bright colors
his potential easy to see 
the wonder in his eyes
still fascinates me

His life a carousel horse
 strong, steady, and true
miracles, magic moments, & memories
and the day he devoted his life to you

Life's up & down like a carousel
childhood too fast a flow
Did I do everything to prepare him?
Did I teach him all he should know?

Parenting's like a carousel
a ride that at some point must end
where I once lifted him up as a child
he now eagerly jumps down as a friend

Like the pole on that carousel
my instinct to hold him tight
not wanting to let go
not wanting to lose my sunshine, my light

When he walks away from my carousel
embarking on his new Navy-ride
he'll see tears of saddness
behind them a floodgate of pride

My heart ships-off with him
praying happiness abounds
for his faith to stay focused 
for his feet to remain firmly planted   
(though I'd prefer on the ground!)

Make his enlistment like a carousel
Of Fair Winds and Following Seas
 Guide him and protect him...
Bring my sailor back 'round to me.

Written by Michelle M. Guppy
For his ship-off date to Navy Boot Camp on December 6, 2011

For my Matthew...
Still a silly-hearted boy embarking on a new journey as a serious Navy man.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

XXOO My heart is too overwhelmed right now. Godspeed Matt. May his wings protect you. Thank you for serving for this nation. Many will be there for your family while you are temporarily away.